[just me and my love.]

Hi, my name is Alex. I'm engaged to the most incredible airman and I'm currently in the process of planning my wedding. This tumblr space is for me to express my fusterations, joys, and excitment until the day my last name changes.
I”ll be a married woman in 79 days.  Whoa. That’s so crazy to think about. Time’s just flying by. The wedding will be here before I know it. Today I was just thinking about how much I’m enjoying this “counting down the days till the wedding” stage. I’ll never have this time again where I”m counting down the days from being a Miss. to a Mrs. I’ll never be able to go through the excitement and nerves of planning a wedding, changing my last name, getting excited about moving into our first apartment for the first time together…  Generally, I’m really bad with waiting for big events. Counting down is normally agonizing because I’m naturally a very impatient person, but I can honestly say that I am really enjoying counting down till the wedding. This time has been so special and precious. I want to enjoy each and every moment. Don’t get me wrong, I can not wait to get married. It’s a dream come true, but I’m contant, extremely happy, and very blessed. Tomorrow will be day 78, than 77, than 76… Each day is a new memory made, a new lesson learned, and a day closer till one of the best days of my, or should I say, our lives.  

I”ll be a married woman in 79 days. 

Whoa. That’s so crazy to think about. Time’s just flying by. The wedding will be here before I know it.

Today I was just thinking about how much I’m enjoying this “counting down the days till the wedding” stage. I’ll never have this time again where I”m counting down the days from being a Miss. to a Mrs. I’ll never be able to go through the excitement and nerves of planning a wedding, changing my last name, getting excited about moving into our first apartment for the first time together… 

Generally, I’m really bad with waiting for big events. Counting down is normally agonizing because I’m naturally a very impatient person, but I can honestly say that I am really enjoying counting down till the wedding. This time has been so special and precious. I want to enjoy each and every moment. Don’t get me wrong, I can not wait to get married. It’s a dream come true, but I’m contant, extremely happy, and very blessed.

Tomorrow will be day 78, than 77, than 76… Each day is a new memory made, a new lesson learned, and a day closer till one of the best days of my, or should I say, our lives.  

(Source: fuckyeahweddingideas, via 20somethingbride)

134 Days.  Geez, where is time going? I remember when we hit the big 200. Planning just never ends. I know I say that all the time, but honestly, it’s just the truth. I’ve been so blessed though because I always hear people say “Hey, I’d love to help! Let me know if there’s anything I can do!”  I’m almost more overwhelmed by the large amount of support and help that has been extended towards me than the actual planning itself. The only problem is that I’m a “do it yourself” kind of girl. I like to be in control of making sure everything is done exactly the way I want it. I’m learning though that instead of stressing about things by myself, I am so blessed to have other people to lean on.  In the next couple of weeks, my invitations have to be made and put together. I finally allowed myself to ask for some help and surprisingly, I’m relieved. I couldn’t imagine making around 180 invites all by myself on top of being in the last couple weeks of school.  Like I said, I am so overwhelmed by all the help that is offered to me. God is so good. 

134 Days. 

Geez, where is time going? I remember when we hit the big 200. Planning just never ends. I know I say that all the time, but honestly, it’s just the truth. I’ve been so blessed though because I always hear people say “Hey, I’d love to help! Let me know if there’s anything I can do!” 

I’m almost more overwhelmed by the large amount of support and help that has been extended towards me than the actual planning itself. The only problem is that I’m a “do it yourself” kind of girl. I like to be in control of making sure everything is done exactly the way I want it. I’m learning though that instead of stressing about things by myself, I am so blessed to have other people to lean on. 

In the next couple of weeks, my invitations have to be made and put together. I finally allowed myself to ask for some help and surprisingly, I’m relieved. I couldn’t imagine making around 180 invites all by myself on top of being in the last couple weeks of school. 

Like I said, I am so overwhelmed by all the help that is offered to me. God is so good. 

(Source: serenadeofaneclecticloversmirage, via stumblingintolove)

Goodness. I wish this was a word to accurately describe the way that I feel about wedding planning. The best way that I can describe it is something like this: Wedding planning is extremely stressful, overwhelming, exciting, fun, tiring, long but at the end of the day I think about how blessed I am to not just plan any wedding, but my wedding.  It’s one of those things that you want to enjoy at the moment, but so much stuff is going on that you figure you’ll look back after your wedding and appreciate each and every stressful moments you had to plan it.  Yesterday was a monumental day. I tried on my gorgeous wedding dress. It’s so me and absolutely stunning. I got it custom made and there are parts on the dress that were hand sown. I have to get some alterations on it, but like I said, I can’t wait to wear it on my wedding day.  Tomorrow will mark… 150 DAYS! 

Goodness. I wish this was a word to accurately describe the way that I feel about wedding planning. The best way that I can describe it is something like this: Wedding planning is extremely stressful, overwhelming, exciting, fun, tiring, long but at the end of the day I think about how blessed I am to not just plan any wedding, but my wedding. 

It’s one of those things that you want to enjoy at the moment, but so much stuff is going on that you figure you’ll look back after your wedding and appreciate each and every stressful moments you had to plan it. 

Yesterday was a monumental day. I tried on my gorgeous wedding dress. It’s so me and absolutely stunning. I got it custom made and there are parts on the dress that were hand sown. I have to get some alterations on it, but like I said, I can’t wait to wear it on my wedding day. 

Tomorrow will mark…

150 DAYS! 

This has become my absolute favorite song. So perfect. (But it’s not only because it’s called Alex’s Song) :) The lyrics melt my heart. 

“Alex’s Song” by Grayson Kessenich 

Last night as I lay sleeping, I saw my whole life
Stretched out against the ceiling, and their you were my wife
There we lived our lives together, Our home was small in size
But love and laughter filled the walls there, and you were by my side

And I thought, I’d wake up, and tell you
If God would give me two, I’d spend both my lives loving you

There we are now with children, sleeping in our bed
But as I reach out to touch them, it’s only in my head
Summer nights and Sunday mornings, Christmas and school plays
You and I so deep in love, as I long for those days

And I thought, I’d wake up, and tell you
If God would give me two, I’d spend both my lives loving you

Time goes on and now we’re older, children all but gone
I still play that same guitar, and sing your favorite songs
Life goes by, the picture’s fading, we don’t have much time
How we lived is how we’ll leave, with your hand in mine

And I thought, I’d wake up, and tell you
If God would give me two…
And I thought, I’d wake up, and tell you
I saw our lives and knew, I’d spend my whole life loving you

Wedding planning is just crazy, but since the last time I’ve posted, I’ve gotten a lot accomplished.  The parents of my four little flower girls know of their dresses. They are going to look ridiculously cute.  I have my rehearsal dinner location. It’s this stunning Italian restaurant just 10 minutes from the church. Very formal and elegant. It’s perfection.  We’re almost done with our gift registries. This process was insane. It’s almost impossible to think of everything that you might possibly need, but we had fun picking stuff out. I started my vase collection for the centerpieces. I looked like a vase collector or hoarder carrying about 30 vases to the register. I went to this cute vintage thrift shop 20 minutes from where I live. Best. Place. Ever. I’ll be going there again to get more stuff. I found a rustic, old window pannel for the reception for $2. Steal? I think so.  I’ll be hanging all the seating cards from it. SO excited.  All this planning is so much fun. It’s so great when I start listing all the things I’ve accomplished because it gets discouraging when I realize how much more stuff I have to plan.  My mom’s been working on selecting the flowers for the bouquets, centerpieces, etc. and she found this flower called “Just Joey”. It’s so precious since my fiance’s name is Joey. I think I’ll be using it for sure.  161 days till I’m his Mrs.!!!!

Wedding planning is just crazy, but since the last time I’ve posted, I’ve gotten a lot accomplished. 

The parents of my four little flower girls know of their dresses. They are going to look ridiculously cute. 

I have my rehearsal dinner location. It’s this stunning Italian restaurant just 10 minutes from the church. Very formal and elegant. It’s perfection. 

We’re almost done with our gift registries. This process was insane. It’s almost impossible to think of everything that you might possibly need, but we had fun picking stuff out.

I started my vase collection for the centerpieces. I looked like a vase collector or hoarder carrying about 30 vases to the register. I went to this cute vintage thrift shop 20 minutes from where I live. Best. Place. Ever. I’ll be going there again to get more stuff.

I found a rustic, old window pannel for the reception for $2. Steal? I think so.  I’ll be hanging all the seating cards from it. SO excited. 

All this planning is so much fun. It’s so great when I start listing all the things I’ve accomplished because it gets discouraging when I realize how much more stuff I have to plan. 

My mom’s been working on selecting the flowers for the bouquets, centerpieces, etc. and she found this flower called “Just Joey”. It’s so precious since my fiance’s name is Joey. I think I’ll be using it for sure. 

161 days till I’m his Mrs.!!!!

Joey and I spent some time searching for apartments today. Let me just say this. It’s SO exciting.  We both looked at each other after we left from a leasing office and said something along the lines of, “It’s crazy to think that we’re at this point in our lives”. In just a matter of months, I’ll be living with not only my best friend and the love of my life, but also my husband.  Yes, I said it. My husband. (That right there puts a huge smile on my face) Progress I’ve made in the past couple of days other than beginning the apartment search? -I contacted my flower girls mother. I’m going to have four little girls and three little boys as ring bearers. Big bridal party.  170 days left!!!!! 

Joey and I spent some time searching for apartments today. Let me just say this. It’s SO exciting. 

We both looked at each other after we left from a leasing office and said something along the lines of, “It’s crazy to think that we’re at this point in our lives”. In just a matter of months, I’ll be living with not only my best friend and the love of my life, but also my husband. 

Yes, I said it. My husband. (That right there puts a huge smile on my face)

Progress I’ve made in the past couple of days other than beginning the apartment search?

-I contacted my flower girls mother. I’m going to have four little girls and three little boys as ring bearers. Big bridal party. 

170 days left!!!!! 

                                    Where am I with wedding planning? Lets see. I completely changed my wedding colors since last weekend. I went from marine blue to blush rose. Big difference. I’d say so.  I’ve found my bridesmaid dresses. $25 a piece. Yes, I’d like a pat on the back thank you very much. Now I have to see if I can score that with the groomsmen suits too.  Booked my photographer, videographer, and DJ. Tip? They’re people I know from college/friends. And pretty awesome people too with lots of talent. I have to start collecting mason jars, clear vases, and such as well as yards of lace so I can start planning ahead for centerpieces. I have no idea where I’m going to keep all of this stuff.  Joey and I have to start looking into apartments since I’m moving into “our” place in May. Coming sooner then we think. Yikes.  Have a dress fitting. Hopefully fall in love with the dress. Start helping my soon to be husband find a job by the end of May. Please, something that doesn’t require deployments.  Email a ton of people that are a part of the wedding. I wish people could just read my mind so I wouldn’t have to feel overwhelmed with the need to communicate with a ton of people. Two words: Gift Registry. Think of all the things Joey and I will need in our apartment. Who knew that people would already be asking us if they could buy us stuff. Yay. Now we just need to make one. This is just the beginning of the list. It just seems to go on and on, but I need to stop myself somewhere. Weddings can be so overwhelming. Especially when you’re planning a 300+ wedding in 6 months on top of a 15 credit semester. I feel like if I’m not stressing about this wedding, I’m stressing about homework or trying to catch up on my sleep deprived self. It’s insane. I can’t wait for my wedding though. I just smile everything I think about the special day. 173 days and counting down. 

                                    Where am I with wedding planning? Lets see.

  • I completely changed my wedding colors since last weekend. I went from marine blue to blush rose. Big difference. I’d say so. 
  • I’ve found my bridesmaid dresses. $25 a piece. Yes, I’d like a pat on the back thank you very much. Now I have to see if I can score that with the groomsmen suits too. 
  • Booked my photographer, videographer, and DJ. Tip? They’re people I know from college/friends. And pretty awesome people too with lots of talent.
  • I have to start collecting mason jars, clear vases, and such as well as yards of lace so I can start planning ahead for centerpieces. I have no idea where I’m going to keep all of this stuff. 
  • Joey and I have to start looking into apartments since I’m moving into “our” place in May. Coming sooner then we think. Yikes. 
  • Have a dress fitting. Hopefully fall in love with the dress.
  • Start helping my soon to be husband find a job by the end of May. Please, something that doesn’t require deployments. 
  • Email a ton of people that are a part of the wedding. I wish people could just read my mind so I wouldn’t have to feel overwhelmed with the need to communicate with a ton of people.
  • Two words: Gift Registry. Think of all the things Joey and I will need in our apartment. Who knew that people would already be asking us if they could buy us stuff. Yay. Now we just need to make one.

This is just the beginning of the list. It just seems to go on and on, but I need to stop myself somewhere. Weddings can be so overwhelming. Especially when you’re planning a 300+ wedding in 6 months on top of a 15 credit semester. I feel like if I’m not stressing about this wedding, I’m stressing about homework or trying to catch up on my sleep deprived self. It’s insane. I can’t wait for my wedding though. I just smile everything I think about the special day.

173 days and counting down. 

so cute <3 xparadoxical: When we get married, I hope we still act like the fun couple who will always laugh in the end of the day. Don’t worry, I promise to cook for you, sleep beside you, shower together,  cuddle in the sofa and ask how’s your day when you came home from work. Just promise me that you will still keep doing the things that made me fall in love with you everyday. That’s all I want. I love you.

so cute <3

xparadoxical:

When we get married, I hope we still act like the fun couple who will always laugh in the end of the day. Don’t worry, I promise to cook for you, sleep beside you, shower together,  cuddle in the sofa and ask how’s your day when you came home from work. Just promise me that you will still keep doing the things that made me fall in love with you everyday. That’s all I want. I love you.

(Source: forever-always-27, via pinkinaworldofcamo)

I can&#8217;t wait for this moment. A lot of my friends consider me crazy for waiting to have my first kiss. First I was crazy for not kissing my boyfriend of over a year. Now, I&#8217;m crazy for not kissing the same man, my fiance.  Am I crazy? Yes, sometimes I believe I am as well.  What am I doing you might ask? Saving our first kiss for the big day. Our wedding. I can&#8217;t tell you guys how many times I&#8217;ve just imagined kissing him or how many times we&#8217;ve just wished to be able to kiss each other.  After reading this you might be thinking, &#8220;Oh boy, they&#8217;re going to have one of those awkward, unfortunate virgin diary kisses&#8221; but nope. We&#8217;ve both kissed other people before so we&#8217;re not that unexperienced. (lol) We just decided when we first met that our first kiss was something that we wanted to save for our future spouse. It&#8217;s one of the most beautiful and yet hardest things I&#8217;ve ever done.  176 days away from sharing this incredible moment with the man I cherish in my heart. The man who will very soon be my husband. 

I can’t wait for this moment.

A lot of my friends consider me crazy for waiting to have my first kiss. First I was crazy for not kissing my boyfriend of over a year. Now, I’m crazy for not kissing the same man, my fiance. 

Am I crazy? Yes, sometimes I believe I am as well. 

What am I doing you might ask? Saving our first kiss for the big day. Our wedding.

I can’t tell you guys how many times I’ve just imagined kissing him or how many times we’ve just wished to be able to kiss each other. 

After reading this you might be thinking, “Oh boy, they’re going to have one of those awkward, unfortunate virgin diary kisses” but nope. We’ve both kissed other people before so we’re not that unexperienced. (lol) We just decided when we first met that our first kiss was something that we wanted to save for our future spouse. It’s one of the most beautiful and yet hardest things I’ve ever done. 

176 days away from sharing this incredible moment with the man I cherish in my heart. The man who will very soon be my husband. 

I never knew that wedding planning could be so stressful. Oh my lanta. 

I shouldn’t have picked the most popular wedding date of the year either. Big mistake.

Wish that eloping was an option. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not because I don’t want a traditional wedding-it’s just cheaper. I could keep all the money my parents are giving us for betting things… like a new car, a house, savings… 

Who started this whole spend $30,000 for a wedding anyway? Cause obviously they thought that money grew on trees or that drowning in debt was a cool thing to do. 

What ever happened to the simple weddings? The ones that didn’t involve expectations of $8,000 wedding dresses or $4,000 videographers. The ones where you could enjoy one of the most memorable days of your life without having to worry about thousands and thousands of dollars that’s being slipped out from right under you. It’s insane.

I just don’t understand. I’m dumbstruck when I hear the thousands of dollars that people put unto weddings. I even throw up a little in my mouth when I talk about the couple thousand that my parents are putting towards my wedding. I just don’t get it. 

Yes, I want a beautiful, memorable wedding that reflects and expresses the love that me and my fiance share but do I want to spend my entire life savings on one day? Heck no. I just want to be able to look back and say, “Gee, that was the best day of my life, but it’s not only about the wedding day, it’s about our lives together and this new journey that we’ve started as husband and wife.” 

So here’s to saying no to $8,000 wedding dresses and $4,000 videographers. It’s time to be realistic and realize that maybe a $400 wedding dress or a affordable videographer is worth a lot more then breaking your bank.